It’s been a while. About 15 months actually!
Last time I posted, I was a bit undecided about blogging in general, and clearly that shows because I then didn’t post anything for over a year.
Last spring, I was feeling quite ambivalent toward blogs and blogging in general. I felt a bit of a disconnect with the blogosphere, and sewing blogging in particular. It seemed to me that more and more blogs were changing from being open, honest records of people’s creations, what worked well, what didn’t, and sewing plans for the future, and started to be more about turning sewing into a business, about promoting this or that independent pattern on a blog tour or a new online fabric store’s selection, with the same bloggers’ names coming up again and again. None of this is necessarily a bad thing, but I started to feel like I was constantly being given the hard sell, creating a need for a new pattern or item of clothing that hadn’t been there before (something that I had been trying to get away from in the first place!).
And then there seemed to be this all-pervading rule of ‘if you can’t say anything nice, don’t say anything at all’ and this made me quite uncomfortable. While I’m not one for hiding behind my keyboard and posting nasty comments for the sake of it, I DO believe that if you have a business space online, you have to be willing to listen to negative feedback and constructive criticism. I was made aware of numerous instances where bloggers (and other commenters) were jumping on any comments that were not 100% positive and complimentary, and suggesting that people were ‘mean’, ’negative’ ‘haters’ for having a different opinion or voicing a complaint, especially if this highlighted that other people were also feeling the ‘hard sell’ I mentioned above.
This paradigm-shift in the SBC meant that I felt less eager to connect, either on my blog or on anyone else’s.
Obviously, I’m not blaming my long blogging hiatus on these things and nothing else, I’m just saying they contributed to my unwillingness to blog or comment.
The truth is, the last 18 months or so have been super busy for me, and blogging just hasn’t been a priority. I’ve been working on trying to get over my fairly crippling nerve damage (and the pain that comes along with it), I got an ace new job (that also includes more hours, a higher workload and definitely more stress!), I’ve been studying outside of work, and then Mr Cuckoo and I got engaged, and have been planning a wedding.
And so, no blogging.
The truth is, when I started my blog, the plan was never to just blog about sewing. Instead, I just wanted the blog to be about the things I was interested in: creating a wardrobe that felt ‘me’; talking about the books I was reading, the games I was playing, the films I was watching; and to just generally have a little place on the internet that was mine, to do with as I pleased.
But, the more I read other blogs (‘sewing’ blogs, ‘lifestyle’ blogs, ‘fashion’ blogs) the more I realised that they were pretty much all about one thing, and that that was what you needed to do in order to have a successful blog. Before long, I was worried about the quality of my photos, my presentation, whether my writing style was ‘right’ for the audience. Clearly, by this point the blog had stopped being about what I wanted to talk about, and started being about what I thought I should be talking about. And I didn’t enjoy it. So, it was hardly surprising that I trailed off from blogging completely.
Despite all this though, the idea of having a little corner of the internet for me still sounds lovely. After thinking about it for the past few months, I’ve realised that I don’t really feel any pressure to make my blog ‘conform’ anymore. I can just write about what I want to write about. It might not gain a massive load of followers, but the truth is, I’m fine with that!
Long story short (tl;dr) – I’m going to give blogging another go, but I doubt it will be all sewing all the time!
::ETA- I’m also in the process of trying to update the blog design, but I have no idea what I’m doing, so if things are broken, that’ll be why!::